What ever goes up must come down

Some things just have to end, and althought it's crappy maybe it's just a sign of the times. Life lately has been full of change, firstly i concquered my irational fear of tampons.... yep suitable blogging topics! Since then the whole world has gone crazy; Sarah and Jon broke up, which I hade been dreaming about - and rather expecting fro awhile. However there is no way that I'm going to say that to anywhichperson, who would believe me! Word on the street is that Sarah ahs a new beau... Chris or someone?? hmm who knows. She has been acting quite the stranger lately, and stranger danger is really being put into place. I just want to protect myself from any which way she might let me down; another whoel change that has been happening way before the tampon revelotion of December '05. Our friendship has probably officially come to an end, theres no point in reminisng or tears, she's been treating pretty much everyone like the ice queen. hmmpft. I feel bad for Hannah, probably not the worst for her because she took the signs and moved on aggggges ago. Unlike some fool - I like keeping my friends, and stupidly tried to 'work it through' now I'm left without a solid best friend. hmmft. Actually this wasn't planned to be a depressive blog, i swear it's the music im listenign to lol! damn Kanye West.
The festive season has come round REALLY quickly, it was only last year that Sarah and Jon got together, and now they're apart, and I'm pretty much the same insecure kid.... just with a new fringe [the start fo the new me im hoping!] new years is coming up and it's lookign liek we'll spend it apart, which I'm glad of. I'll smile sweeting in R.E class, and giggle at the occasional joke in form. However once we begin college I reckon it'll be the time to split. For good.
I need to find a new 'best friend', at the mo I have Hannah, but she has Lauren, and they have to have best friend time just as allllll the other kids do with their boys. So here I am, feeling pretty much the way the aged, single / divorced 30 year olds do around Christmas. Tradigcally alone. If only I could find me a new best friend! - can I buy one I wonder lol. aww how bad I feel for myself.
merry christmas one and two.
xxxx
lets just pray for a FANTASTIC fun filled holiday and a friend filled new year